Pen Merah Pen Biru

「もしもし。。だれかいますか？」自分の心に聞きました。 シーンと。。だれもいないか～と思った瞬間 「いるよ。ここに。ずっと前からいたよ。気づいてないの？」 「いなくなったときに気づいた」 「皆そうだね」 「つらい」 「それは当り前だ！」 「まだいるの？」 「いるよ。ただあなたはもうあそこにいてはいけない。。僕の心に」 T T シーンと . . . . . . コンコン。。「すみません～入っていいですか？」 [How people treat you is their karma, how you react is yours]

Hujan. Sekarang musim hujan. Hari-hari, petang-petang balik kerja, pagi-pagi pergi kerja, tengahari cuti-cuti, selalu hujan. Saya? Masih seperti dulu. Tak pernah berhenti tersenyum pabila hujan. (Senyum dan tunduk.. haha mengada) 1) Bila hujan, nyaman. 2) Lepas hujan, bersih  3) Masa hujan, doa senang makbul.. Selain family and food (haha), saya rindu ini.. Hujan malaysia.. p.s: hari2 hujan, bila pulak nak hantar car wash ni.. (^^;) [How people treat you is their karma, how you react is yours]

[I'm losing my writing sense. So, pardon me for.... for anything..everything. This is actually an early warning] I turned around and I found nothing. I saw no one. I tried to be positive. Again again again and again. I failed. Just.. Gorgeously failed. Failure never a gorgeous thing anyway. They said, it just a matter of time. So I took a break. They said chocolate will do. So, I ate tremendously. Nothing. I used to not to listen to anyone except who Allah told me to. I felt more relax back then. But then, came too many peoples with too many theory and too many ideology into my life. I broke my own policy. I did things I swear when I was in darjah 1 not to do. I did things I swear when I was in form 2 not to do. Got the point? I lost too many side of me. You may think, at the very point I'm writing this, I am a totally messed and lost lady. Ok. tambah. Totally messed and lost and gorgeous lady. haha You are free to think inside the box or outside. You got nothing to do any...